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The 180 day

Wed Apr 8, 2009, 12:41 PM

Mood: Relief
Listening to: "Polyushka Pole" by Origa
Watching: Law and Order: SVU

Today started out with me waking up at 6am and feeling like crap.

Today was the day that I had a rough draft in Enlgish due. And a History test I didn't study for. And a speech that I had barely prepared for when I have a big fear of public speaking.

I wasn't able to take a proper shower because the hot water wasn't working again last night and my hair felt really gross until I was able to wash it right a few minutes ago. I had to dress up nice for my speech as well which involved me walking around all morning in a dress and I hate dresses. When ever I had free time I was looking over my note cards for my speech.

I was so nervous about everything the I was shaking nearly all morning up until the speech. And on the way to my Communications class I felt like I wanted to cry.

But let me start at the beginning...

Like I said I started my day at 6am after only getting about 4 hours of sleep (which is pretty good for me). I woke up and went over my speech and tried to figure out how I would go about delivering it. At the same time I was also working on the rough draft for my research paper for English. I barely looked at my history notes even though I knew I would be taking a test over it. At around 7:40am I was dressed in my dress and ready to face the day in not the sunniest attitude.I was pretty sure that it was then end of the world as I knew it.

So I went off to English. It started at 8am. We talked about some stuff involving the paper like what the teacher wanted us to turn in on Friday and stuff like that. So I switch my draft with my friend's and while her draft was.. well a draft she said that mine was pretty good besides some major issues that I already knew about. So that was minor boost of confindence #1. It brightened my day... a little.

So English ended. It's time for the History test that I didn't study. I sat down in my seat and wondered why I even bothered showing up because I know I'm gonna fail it anyway. So the test gets handed out and I'm nervous, scared, depressed. It felt like the end of the world. But somehow I got lucky again this time and there was an essay question that I could write about fairly easily (the essay is the biggest part of the test). And there were smaller essays that would be easy to write about too. And the multiple choice questions were kinda easy as well. I was happy/surprised that I was able to finish the test with 5 minutes to spare as opposed to last time where I didn't finish it and I even stayed 5 minutes after the class had ended. Confidensce Boost # 2.

Political Science was nothing special. All I did was look over my speech notes again, praying that I would fall deathly ill or get hit by a car before I had to do that speech. Unfortunately, nothing like that happened and an hour after Political Science was I was finally giving my speech.

I'll tell you what that was quite possibly the fastest 6 minutes of my life. I stumble over my words and would lose track of what I was saying. It was terrible. But I finally got it over with, so for the rest of the day I'm safe.

But what was really amazing was that after the speech I felt great. All the doom that I was feeling this morning was completely gone before lunch. I dare say I was happy again. Once I snapped out of my "woe is me the world is ending" mindset I was able to reflect on some of the good stuff that happened today. Like for starters, when I was walking to English this morning I got an up-down look from a guy. It was kinda nice... in a weird way. I mean really weird.

But another thing was I finally made time to go to the gym today. After my work out today I felt sweaty but oddly more relaxed then I've felt in a long time. I mean a really long time.

And then, just a little while ago, I checked my grade in Communications on the University website and I got a 96! I was pleased. I was shocked. I was happy. It was a great feeling. Now I can finally relax and just sit down and draw. What a weight off my shoulders.

It's kinda like what my dad said: "Always expect the worst and you'll never be disappointed."

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~chaotic-clockwork Apr 9, 2009, 11:57:47 AM

Only you would pray for an accident involving a car at high speeds. xD

But, regardless, I'm glad everything turned out well.

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~Shadedsolace Apr 9, 2009, 12:19:50 PM

Only me. XD But did you know that most people would rather die then speak in public.

Yeah, lol me too.

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~OmegaMana Apr 9, 2009, 2:30:08 PM

Yay for everything turning out better!

And congrats on getting an up-down from a guy. Still doesn't beat my getting my ass felt up by one of the football guys. XD

And I'm not surprised about the speech. You always do wonderfully on those. ^_^ Just need to believe in yourself.

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~Shadedsolace Apr 9, 2009, 4:20:22 PM

You got felt up by a football player?! And you never told me?! I thought we were friends!! T_T

I'm not good at speech. At one time I even choked a little when I was talking thats how nervous I was. @_@

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~chaotic-clockwork Apr 9, 2009, 5:45:43 PM

Kind of like me. But, when you're actually doing it, it feels way different. I thought I did terrible on mine, but I ended up getting a B (and I would've gotten an A if I would've shut the hell up about 21 seconds earlier. D

. Crazy that we're taking the same class. BTW, what did you do your speech over?

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~Shadedsolace Apr 9, 2009, 5:50:48 PM

I did my speech over sleep deprivation. lol I thought it was a personaly thing for me. XD being it relates to me ALOT.

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~chaotic-clockwork Apr 10, 2009, 4:28:07 AM

And, boy, aren't you an expert. xD

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OH GOD NOT AGAI--.:explodes:.

~Shadedsolace Apr 10, 2009, 4:38:59 AM

I know! I accidently pulled an all nighter this time around too. I think I went to lay down for an hour and a half before the girl in the room next door started arguing with her roommate and slaming doors and all the shit.

She pretty much did that for like 3 f**king hours. So I've been up since 11am yesterday... but maybe I'll take a nap or something once I'm done working out today.

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~OmegaMana Apr 10, 2009, 1:16:18 PM

XD It was an accident and whatnot. I figured it wasn't all that important. >_>;;

I've never liked speeches. XD I'm so hoping my Speech credit will transfer correctly and I'll be able to skip three credit hours of that. XD (I need six for my degree; that's the core, I believe.)

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